I’m having a love affair with the road and all the places that it leads. It only took an hour to get out of the LA traffic before I got myself entangled in the enjoyment of this threesome – the road, my van and me. We make for a sexy combination – just sayin’. What do you do when you have ultimate control over your freedom? You sing bad pop songs really loudly of course! Also I tend to get naked on hikes in the desert where no one else is around, turn left when I’m meant to go right just because I’m feeling curious, cafe hop buying drinks only enabling me to afford gas, browse carefully curated thrift stores for as lonnnnng as I want, engage in conversations with strangers more often, wake and drive straight to the best place for sunrise then race those tired eyes to the summit before the show starts, write, photograph, smile and dream.

If you told me I was headed to a barren, rocky wasteland where there is little water or shade in sight you would have me nervous about the enjoyment at the destination but it turns out the desert can be just as charming as the sea in more of a tough love approach. Like any badass you have to work a little harder to break through the rough edges to discover the hidden gems that the desert can offer. The openness which appears empty and harsh during the heat of the day leaves room for the Coyote’s call to vibrate the rocky walls of the campground under a full moon, much to mine and a nearby neighbours delight whose “Wow, what the fuck?! That was awesome!” statement echoing across to where I was seated summed up the brilliance just as well as any romantic poem. My last day in the desert was complete with a visit to the Integratron. The Integration is a purpose built dome intended for time travel. Created by George Van Tassel who built the structure under what he claims to be instructions from extra terrestrials in the mid 1900s. I’m not sure if I travelled time in the same way as it was intended by the aliens, but I travelled through time and space leaving my body behind during a sound bath session in this giant, wooden, dome in the middle of the desert. The sound of the crystal quarts bowls being played rocked through my body and aligned my chakras leaving me deeply relaxed as I walked out of that dome floating on clouds. I left Joshua Tree clear and born in to a dream like state where all my desires corresponded with creation, healing and positive energy.
But like any romance we hit a speed bump. Along the coast of Big Sur I was unmoved like I had anticipated and this disappointed me and made me want to seek out company. My aloneness suddenly transcended in to loneliness. As much as I adore my family and friends and appreciate the comforts of home I’m not one to get homesick very often. But here I was missing one of my closest friends 21st birthday and I was struck with that gut twirling longing for home. I tried to perk myself up with a visit to the beach but although striking in beauty it was cold and the fly’s attacked me at all angles which left me feeling even less amused then previous. I was falling in to that trap where the further you distance yourself from society the more you despise it as I sat there picking on all the people passing by. I had to get out of there. Driving further north my mood lightened when I stopped in at a gorgeous Inn (sitting amongst the woods looking over the sea) where the young lady at reception greeted me with so much warmth and enthusiasm even telling me about a short walk up the hill to a seat overlooking the ocean usually reserved for guests. I arrived in between meal times and didn’t pay a single cent to this property which sparkled in affluence. I was overwhelmed by the hospitality and felt as though I was treated no different to the rich and famous that fill their guest book. My cynicism ceased and mood restored as I sat looking out to the ocean from the previously mentioned seat after wandering property.
Onward to Yosemite National Park. I arrived in the heat of the day and took refuge in a nearby river. I sat on a large flat rock where the water flowed loud and proud around me. My afternoon was spent reading in the sun. I’m easily entertained. I can do both stimulating, activity laid out for me or you can simply give me a book to read or write/doodle in and I’ll be set for the day. My accommodation wasn’t high rise luxury apartment but I felt as though I was leading an equally luxurious life with the ultimate freedom to play choose your own adventure with no one to answer too. Yosemite was undeniably grand. I had just conquered a hike that not only took my breath away due to the near dead, upright, paths (okay I’m being dramatic but it was a hella steep grade) but because the views were pretty damn special! Anddddd there was even a bright and vivid, rainbow dancing in and out of the waterfall I’d hiked too when I finally made it up the last step. I know right!? I have so many moments in the natural world where I am so blown away by how impressive it is that I just can’t fathom how anyone chooses to destroy or harm our world in anyway. Each new sight I lay my eyes on I feel increasingly inspired to walk lighter to care for the habitat I’m blessed with. My life is not at all strictly eco friendly but I believe any intention and step we take to live harmoniously with the land is one worth making. That evening I was once again soaring up to the highest elevation to watch the sunset. I sat on the edge of the earth on my granite cliff face overlooking the valley, wide eyed, tummy tingling taking in every last changing hue painted around me. As a woman sleeping in a van alone in a foreign country and places I was surprised to have conversations with strangers that thought what I was doing was outlandish. Sometimes I feel sad that girls let themselves become submissive to the threat of violent and crazed men and society’s expectations surrounding that. In my experience confidence and our intuition are some of a female’s most valuable strength’s of defence. I’m not denying that people can be dangerous but I’m of the opinion that their are many more good hearted people than sick minded people in the world and despite gender it is very unfortunate to encounter the latter. As woman we shouldn’t feel like we can’t embark on solo journeys because of these issues. Yes, we must be aware but do your research, assert yourself and listen to your gut. Don’t be told what you can and can’t do because of your gender.
I found myself freezing and craving a hot drink to cuddle my hands around after driving out of Yosemite. At Lee Vining I thankfully found just that at a small, mismatched and colourful, cafe complete with a waiter I developed a small crush on during my 2 hour stay where I peaked up from the photos downloading on my computer screen to admire this majestic, mountain, man with striking, blue, eyes. That night I stayed at a nearby road side pull out with some fellow nomads needing a place to rest for the night. I parked with my van door facing the lake so I could wake and watch the sunrise from my bed side. Bliss. Away I drove towards Lake Tahoe. I took a detour to walk around the abandoned gold mining town of Bodhi reflecting on the society that once boomed here imagining the chaos of the men in the pubs drinking away their day’s work thirsty for the riches hidden in the mines surrounding them. At Tahoe the water dazzled my senses with it’s turquoise allure glittering from the warm sun’s reflection. I was eager to have a wash as I was well over due for one but as my toes hit the water I quickly retreated as the water snapped at them with it’s cool touch. The higher altitude and cooler evenings were not in the water temperature’s favour so I had to dismiss my bathing plans. Once again I lay in the sun reading a book. Behind me a couple argued about a $20’000 water installation. Harsh tones and complete unrest habituated itself between the souls just a few feet from me. I wanted to shake them. Calm waters lapped at the ankle of this crazed woman. I made a silent vow to myself that I never get so disillusioned by the money trap that I forget about the beauty offered for free in the world around me. On Saturday evening I treated myself to a meal at a swanky, farm to table restaurant revelling in it’s tasty, organic goodness before watching the story of the NWA in Straight Outta Compton at an Art Haus Cinema escaping the cool air outside warmed by a micro brewery cider in the charming cinema. I drove back to my camp site afterwards thinking about the intense fight they had within for their rights feeling thankful for how far we’ve come and also inspired to keep on going with issues we are yet to resolve.
After two weeks on the road I was excited to return my van and re enter society. San Francisco traffic greeted me in all it’s painfully slow, glory. Sitting in a van at a stand still in 35+ degree heat was not ideal for 2 hours (no exaggerations). I flicked between radio stations and with windows rolled down I stopped on a channel belting out Ludacris’ Move Bitch Get Out The Way. I had a giggle at how fitting this lyric was for how I felt about the situation I was in. We all collect our movie scene moments. We just need to pay more attention. After breaking the traffic I drove over the famous Golden Gate Bridge and around Marina Headlands. A tiny little beach situated between two large rock faces framed my last sunset for the trip so postcard picture perfectly. I saluted the sun with hands in prayer position above my head balancing on one leg breathing it all in with a humble smile. On the plane home I watched a new release starring Reese Witherspoon, The Wild. Many quotes stood out to me in this film and served as valuable reflection on some of my findings on my own small journey alone both hiking in Kauai previous to my road trip and whilst driving across California. One that resonated with me deeply and summed up my never ending fascination with the golden hour is where I will end this reflection “There is a sunrise and a sunset every day and you can choose to be there for it. You can put yourself in the way of beauty.” No matter whether you are travelling to new and exciting destinations or are going about your every day life at home you can always be moved by a sunrise and sunset, breathe in this magical light each day. It’s soul food.


blog001Too many people are more inclined to be urgent about gaining money, gaining acceptance from others and gaining accolades of excellence than they are in giving love, getting to know themselves and being someone they are accepting of and fulfilling their dreams no matter how small or big. You’ve heard this before right? Money isn’t everything. Love is the answer. Degrees aren’t a worthy measure of success.

Why is it such a rarity that I find people who aren’t blindly on a quest to save, invest, or plan for the future if we are often reminded of what’s important? As humans we find it easier to be comfortable and this is a comfortable path. The sooner you face up to being uncomfortable, the sooner you will find the courage to chase passions, open your heart to friendships and lovers, and find a wealth of joy in life lived today.

Comfort may satisfy some. It’s not for me. It’s not asking too much to want more out of life than simply following an agenda society set out for me because it’s easy. I’m not opposed to university, a career, marriage, creating a home and/or family, a 9-5 job and retiring. I am opposed to the notion that these concepts are your only options and that you must live your life according to a pre-determined timeline of goals. You can actually do whatever you want with your life. You are only constrained by you.

Last week I danced amongst light beams of the setting sun surrounded by people unafraid to release passion at Little Beach here on Maui, Hawaii. A month ago a part of me nagged to stay in my comfort zone. Thoughts and feelings previously unfamiliar to me where threatening me to choose the safe options. Anxiety sat with me before I slept and shined it’s light when I woke. If I had listened I’d probably still be harnessed with pressure instead of the lightness and clarity I am experiencing now. I have more direction now by giving space to discovery than when I felt as though I needed to force feed my being in to ambition to safe guard my future. Allow yourself to dance, to play, to create, to connect, to breathe!

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blog001I gravitate towards contrasts. The light and the dark both entertain my interest. Sometimes I wrestle with the changes and hypocrisy. I criticise too often. I don’t have to be one or the other. I can accept what is, that is fluidity. Hawaii is nature’s metropolis of contrasts home to 11 of the 13 climate zones in the world. You can’t ignore the distinct differences in such close proximity to one another. A dry and barren volcano crater appears in the midst of humid rainforest, you can stand with one foot in a sauna and the other in a air pressured hand dryer at the one time experiencing opposing extremes.
Mother nature can do it. So can I. I am a reflection of the divine creator so just as she spins on her axis between ying and yang without judgement or confinement, so can I. I can and I will ghetto booty drop to RnB as well as rise early to practice salutations to the sun listening to the birds as they wake with me. I can and will write eloquently but say fuck if I please. I can and will immerse in passionate discussion of politics and social issues as well as get silly with girlfriends giggling in fits over meaningless things. I can and will retreat to the corners of my mind writing and creating on my own and the next moment leave all my thoughts behind to socialise over dinner and cider. It’s not just the activities I involve myself with, it’s my emotions, my attitudes and my presence that will deviate. I am both sassy and serious. I am both shy and the life of the party. I am both easy going and luxurious. I am not restricted to one definition.
A portion of me felt as though I needed to become one on this journey; to find my place/persona but instead I’m accepting that I’m a human and not a genre. I am a constantly evolving creation. Contrasts are creation; like a storm and the sun parent a rainbow I am a colouful spectrum between the paradox of life.

In my rainbow form I float between the islands of Hawaii. I stayed on Big Island doing a work exchange on an organic farm in return for accommodation on a plot of paradise hidden amongst lava rock wastelands. Catherine and I shared a light filled bungalow behind a wall of ferns and tropical flowers fitted with all our needs (“all” means a kitchen that includes a food processor to blend our farm fresh banana smoothies and granola bowls).
We tended to a nutrient rich vegetable and fruit garden 5 days a week. I loved connecting with the soil, bugs and bees which I learned are vital to growing the food we eat. The same food which as a society we are often so disconnected with, purchasing our food from an artificially lit warehouse referred to as a supermarket, rather than the earth that so generously provides for us outdoors. We increasingly remove ourselves from our natural world so I believe it’s vital to take up opportunities that humbly reconnect us to the earth. The more I connect, the more I am inclined to give mother earth the care she deserves. Care that is sadly very needed.
After work Lisa (who was staying long term at the farm working for our host Greg) would drive Catherine and I dancing in the backseat to the sea or a nearby hike. My body exhausted after the days work and activities would fall in to a deep slumber every night. I’d wake and discuss all my wacky dreams with Catherine sharing breakfast and herbal tea from the garden before work.
At the property I was staying on was also another couple with an interesting background, Gabriel and Katia. Gabriel shared his knowledge about plants and soil, Katia shared her knowledge about nutrition and eating vegan. I am so grateful for what I’ve learnt organically just from those I’ve encountered on my journey. When hitchhiking with a commercial fisherman who often dives I learnt what to do if you see a shark (face it and try not to react so it doesn’t sense a change in your electromagnetic field then wait for it to swim away – easier said than done hey?!). I am enlightened everyday.
My being bursts for moments of which travel leaves open to experiencing; driving to the most southern point in the US just down the road from where we were staying to marvel at the full moon in conjunction with Jupiter and Saturn’s alignment in the sky, hiking through volcano craters discovering steam escape from the lava bubbling below the surface, taking a bus where the ride was nearly more interesting than the destination with all the wacky characters onboard, sharing dinner while watching the sun set over the sea, rubbing my feet through black volcanic sand, discussing the benefits of hemp and the future business that would begin on Big Island, the list feels endless.
I love being inspired everyday and hope that everyone get’s to feel the same zest that I do in their own lives. Below are images from my stay on Big Island.

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_MG_7424I’m floating at the moment. I may not know exactly where I’m headed, but I’m learning that most people don’t. Life is a series of trial and error. I’m becoming content in limbo land as that’s where we are always going to be – the future is always going to propose questions but life can’t be lived now focusing on the answers only the future can tell. We must strive to live presently. I’m speaking as someone who considers myself ambitious. I’m not forgetting my dreams but I’m becoming comfortable with those moments where I’m not sure or feel like changing my mind rather than retreating to a state of anxiety about the ever looming tomorrow. Why ruin today with the thought of an uncertain future? We never really know what’s going to happen in the end anyway. We just have to give it a go and embrace the now.

Right now I’m on the path of travel. New places and people inspire me. I feel uplifted making discoveries and conversing about people’s ideas and lifestyles. I feel at peace making these memories.

Last week I crawled in to a tiny 10 seater plane and marvelled at the islands from above. This was the moment where the adrenalin kicked in and I got excited for my stay on the Hawaiian islands. My first stop was Maui staying in a town fit for a surf movie set: roofless jeeps echo reggae, golden skin men with guitars on their back ride towards the beach, palm trees line the sky and the Aloha spirit welcomes my new found friends and I as we order ice cream before falling in to dreams between sheets of salt and sand. I fell in love with every moment on Maui. I’d wake to excited chatter in the light filled, blue walled hostel kitchen about what everyone was setting off to do with their day before jumping in a mini van to explore the island. We hiked through the mystical Iao Valley through sometimes ankle deep mud and shoulder width paths until reaching a point high in the centre of the valley to eat lunch amongst the clouds. I met a wise creature of the sea, a giant sea turtle floated alongside me probably gawking at my snorkel face in the endless abyss of blue. We danced to reggae house beats in a nearby town getting hips swinging on the dance floor before getting lost on the search of a ranch house rave. We gave up on the rave but I looked up to the universe where painted above me was a brightly burning galaxy. The night sky always enchants me. I felt saturated in beauty on this island. Mahalo Maui.

This week I am settling in to a new home on Big Island where I am learning about organic produce and how to grow it working in exchange for accommodation and food (Wwoofing – look it up, it’s a great way to travel on the cheap). Today I spent the morning tending to rows of vegetables and fruits before sinking in to the afternoon. My housemate and friend Carolina and I burnt sage around our new home setting intentions about how we want to live our life – embracing happiness and chasing passions. Then we danced around the kitchen before I sat to reflect writing while admiring a sunset in the distance past the garden out the window. Our neighbours staying on the same property Gabriel and Katia joined us soon after sharing their deep knowledge about growing food with us over Katia’s vegan dinner. I am grateful for the opportunity to meet so many wonderful people. I will share more about my experience here on Big Island as my time increases but for now I’ll conclude my thoughts with images from my stay on Maui.

I may not know where I want to be in 6 months but I know I’m in the right place for now. I’m satisfying my endless curiosity about different ways to live, love and learn. Hang loose – that’s how Hawaiians do it *Shaka*

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00uploadI wake up early dancing in to the day that awaits me with open arms. I am free to roam or to stay and relax in bamboo paradise listening to the roar of the river flow through the gully below my bedroom. The adventure is mine to choose. I have no agenda. I feel refreshed. I have a rekindled creative energy and am motivated to create this blog.

I am blessed and cursed with a wandering heart beating for new adventures. I become both restless and worn out with prolonged routine. This 10 day get away reawakened my soul which was becoming stagnant in my everyday surrounds. I’m generally a very optimistic human who can find joy in many ways but at times I loose that zest and need to take a break. Some may say this is self indulgent. I disagree. Yes I personally get to enjoy wonderful experiences but I am filled with motivation and enthusiasm which I can carry back to the land of everyday radiating positive energy again. Time out is worthwhile. Time out can be 1 hour reading in the sun, 1 day doing a day hike or 1 week discovering a tropical destination. Do it for yourself and for those you surround yourself with. Recenter. Rejuvenate. Restore.

I took time out with loved ones in Bali pictured here at a house made entirely of Bamboo in Green Village out of Ubud. I woke up fresh in the comfort of my accredited Ethical Clothing Australia Nico underwear Tee and Body Peace Bamboo Bottom huggers, hair still carrying extra oil from massage oils used the afternoon before and eyes still shedding dream dust. I strive to make friendly fashion purchases buying from ethical and environmentally friendly resources only.

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